A cupcake for you… A letter to our 2nd child!
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.” Proverbs 3:5-6
I’ve been doing a lot of trusting in Jesus over the past few months. I still don’t understand. I’m still a little angry. I still cry long and hard when I’m alone. I still question God. I still question myself. My heart is still so broken. BUT… I choose to trust Him no matter what trials may come our way. I know you were here and you matter. I know Jesus loves you! This was your month. Your month to come into the world. Your month for us to bring you home. This was your month that Your big sister would have sang Jesus Loves Me to you. Your month to make us a family of four. You are so loved. While we never held you we know you were here. We celebrated your existence when we saw those two pink lines. Your short life counts. You deserve to be celebrated! The moment we found out about you we were so excited. We were told not to get excited but you were so real to us. Losing you is so painful but I’d rather cry many tears losing you then never knowing you are waiting for us in heaven. The most important thing is that Jesus knows of your life. Jesus knows how real you are to us! Jesus knows all the love we have in our hearts for you. I believe Jesus celebrated with us when we discovered you. I also believe Jesus knows our broken hearts after you left. Jesus knows and His love for you gives me such peace and hope. I miss what was suppose to be but I trust Him. I miss what should have been you in my arms but I trust His plan. My heart is broken but I know Jesus has you!. This month I miss you! This month I choose to celebrate you in the only way I know how. I choose to not only grieve you not being here with us but I choose to celebrate that we know about you. I love you and I know I will hold you one day. Until then here is an extra large cupcake for you! Happy due date month!