But you, Lord, do not be far from me. You are my strength; come quickly to help me.” Psalms 22:19
After the carousel stopped Ellie wanted to ride again and again and again. She didn’t want the ride to stop. It doesn’t feel like long ago, before I met Jessie and long before Ellie that I too sat on the carousel. I’m talking about the carousel of life. I sat there not wanting the ride to stop. I was playing a game with God. The game where I so desperately wanted to live for Him yet still eager to chase worldly things. I didn’t want to stop my worldly ways. On this carousel of life I’d see the goodness of God and only wave as I kept spinning in circles living my life the way I wanted until I would see Him and wave again as I passed by. Over and over again my life went round and round never leaving me satisfied. One day I heard God call out my name and this time it was different. This time I found myself desiring for the carousel to stop. God was calling out my name and I wanted for the first time to really follow His voice. Unfortunately I was on the carousel of life for way too long and suddenly I didn’t know how to make it stop. Eventually I grew the courage and called out for Him to stop what I was powerless to do myself. I haven’t looked back. I thank God everyday for His Grace on my life. I thank God everyday because without His unconditional love I would still be that broken girl spinning round and round on the carousel of life.