“Do not gloat over me, my enemy! Though I have fallen, I will rise. Though I sit in darkness, the LORD will be my light.“ Micah 7:8
I love the way Ellie looks at me even when I’m struggling. I can feel how proud she is of me even when over the past few weeks I’ve found it difficult to be proud of myself. I haven’t been the best version of myself as a mother or wife. I’ve been tired, sick moody and a couch bum. This part of pregnancy is so difficult when you have a 4 year old who still depends on you so much. I’m so thankful and blessed that while slowly, the morning sickness, fatigue and moodiness are disappearing. I’m so ready to be back to my normal mom/wife self doing fun projects with Ellie and cleaning my house. This season in pregnancy has been a great reminder to me of how Jesus looks at me despite the way I view myself.
There will be seasons in life when we are not the best version of who God made us to be. But guess what? Jesus still looks at us proud of where we have allowed Him to bring us. He looks at us proud to call us His child. No! I’m not saying it’s fine to give up in life because Jesus will love you anyway. What I’m saying, is this, we will struggle. We will have bad days, weeks months and years. We will struggle to be who Jesus has called us to be BUT In the mist of that struggle, Jesus will be right beside us, always proud to call us His daughters and sons. Are you struggling right now? Rest in knowing that you are a child of the most High. He loves you so much and right now He is looking at you with love and joy. You will fall but the enemy won’t win. Allow the Lord to be the light that leads you out!