The older you get the more that I cry. The taller you grow the more I ask why. Today is your birthday and we’ll celebrate. But first I’ll thank God that I get to love you each day.
This year was big. You asked Jesus in your heart in the backseat of the car, at the red light, right outside of the Casey’s Store. While I know there will be a time later when you ask again because you might not remember I’ll always remember and so will Jesus the very first time on July 11th 2019 at 506 pm that you said “Jesus you come in my heart?”
You are strong, you are brave, you are kind, you have so much joy, you are filled with endless amounts of humor, you have wisdom beyond your years, you are filled with compassion, you are a leader and as much as I want to proudly shout that you are mine it’s just not true because YOU ARE HIS. You are so loved by Jesus and I am honored to be given the important role of your mother.
This year you made me proud on so many levels. One of my favorite memories is the night we were at a pizza restaurant. You ran up to dad asking him to help you find the girl who was sitting alone. He was confused so you ran up to me. It took both dad and I together to try and understand what you were asking. We didn’t see a girl sitting alone. Then we told you to show us and you did. You walked us right up to a young girl sitting by herself and you said hi. Ellie, I want to be like you when I grow up because you know how to love others just like Jesus does.
Today we will celebrate with furry stuff friends a homemade cake and presents. You didn’t let having to cancel your party get you down. You are so thrilled to celebrate in isolation. We will always remember Corona2020! You are thrilled no matter what because Jesus lives in your heart and as you always remind me “Jesus wants us to have joy!” You my child are filled with his joy.
Today you turn 4. I can’t even process how this happened. Today you turn 4 and already you are starting your birthday with a bam. You get to be a big sister. My heart overflows imagining you holding your baby sister or brother for the first time. You are so proud. Today you turn 4 and for some odd reason as we celebrate my heart breaks because slowly I’m watching you develop into your own and I Know that moment will come when you venture out on your own. Until then, we will continue to point you to Jesus because as long as He is first in your life nothing can break you. I love you my cheese taco. Happy birthday!
This picture was taken over thanksgiving!