Miracles, Stars, Rainbows and Thankful Hearts!
Thanksgiving week has snuck up on me but here we are! Jay will be 7 weeks this Wednesday and life has been so busy but so much better since we have brought him home. Some days all Jay wants is to be held and fed. At the same time, Ellie wants to show me every trick and tell me every story. All the while Jay is using his penis as a water gun to shoot pee across the room and squirting poop at my face (keeping it real y’all ) during EVERY diaper change. It can feel overwhelming at times. However, I was recently reminded how empty my arms once felt after our miscarriage. I was reminded how I cried cause all I wanted was to hold my baby (our star in heaven) who I should have continued to grow and eventually bring home. Then I was reminded of the crippling news from two doctors telling me that pregnancy was not probable… “but God” I prayed… “You can make a way!” God did! He gave us Ellie. She’s truly a miracle my doctor at the time told me not to get excited about. Yes! I walked in one month pregnant and he told me not to get excited. I walked back in at 2 months pregnant and he admitted he hadn’t seen a pregnancy happen for someone with my medical history but one other time in his 30 years. Ellie is a miracle that two doctors said may never be possible. To hold a baby who was never suppose to exist is the most beautiful feeling that I pray all get to experience. To hold a baby after a miscarriage is icing on the cake. As I was saying, I was reminded and suddenly nothing else in the world mattered but holding Jay, watching Ellie do the same jump for the 100th time, telling Ellie and Jay that I love them and thanking God for blessing me with both. I’m even thankful for the story of our little star in heaven. Even though my heart is still broken that our star is not here on earth I’m thankful that I know that once upon a time that star was growing inside of me. Motherhood is far from easy. Can I get an amen? It’s so challenging but it’s also an opportunity to thank God with the way I love my kids and point them to Him. I’m so thankful to be on this journey. I’m so thankful I serve a God who answers every prayer in His time and in His way. A God who is a God of miracles and rainbows and lets all the little stars sit in the palm of his hand. I serve a God who has a blessing for not only me but you. I’m so thankful!
How has God blessed you? What are you thankful for?
We all have a reason to say thanks. Even in 2020!
“I will praise you, Lord, with all my heart;
I will tell of all the marvelous things you have done.” Psalms 9:1 NLT