I’ve wrestled over the past few years while trying to decide how to school Ellie. Should we homeschool her? Should we send her to a school? What if we fail her in either choice we make. In the wrestling I was able to hear Gods constant desire for Ellie. Jessie always knew sending Ellie to school was what was best for Ellie but knowing my struggle with letting go, he left the decision in my hands. He was ok with what I chose. I went back and forth several times. Praying through the entire process, finally I woke up one morning and the “peace that surpasses all understanding” (Philippians 4:6) flooded my heart. I knew! The wrestling was over. The only peace I felt was in the direction of sending Ellie to school. Jessie felt the same. The decision was made and excitement and peace has continued to grow. I’m so thankful for those who have prayed along side us while we made this decision and those who have encouraged me to only focus on what God has called me to choose for Ellie. The confidence Ellie has as she walks into her first day is so encouraging. The excitement she has to make new friends and learn new things brings me so much joy. Her eagerness to meet a friend who does not know Jesus so that she can introduce them to Him makes all of this make complete sense. She is confident! She is excited! She is eager! She is loved! She is prayed over! She is ready!
“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.” John 14:27