In Kidslife this past weekend our friends planted grass seed and look what happened!!! Samson’s hair grew! We learned about the strength God have Samson in his hair. Samson went against God’s instruction and told Delilah about the strength his hair gave him. Delilah cut off his hair while he slept and when he woke up His strength was gone. Aren’t you glad God never says “I told you so!” I am. Samson’s hair grew back and God Gave Samson a second chance with new strength. However, Samson’s disobedience first caused him to be thrown in jail and laughed at. It wasn’t until Samson prayed to God, admitting his failure and asking for a second chance that God gave him his strength back. From the get go Samson should have stayed far away from Delilah but instead he kept entertaining her presence. There are many things we know we should stay away from but we continue to entertain them. They will get you in trouble. Samson was able to defeat the Philistines because of the strength God gave him. Sadly, when the temple came crashing down Samson was buried with it and he died! Samson went out as a hero! God is a God of 2nd chances but we have to be willing to ask God for help. More importantly, we should remember to listen to God’s instruction from the beginning to ultimately keep ourselves out of trouble.

A blessing in a cup of coffee!

A blessing in a cup of coffee!

“But if we look forward to something we don’t yet have, we must wait patiently and confidently.” Romans 8:25 NLT

Four girls were waiting in line to get coffee. It was taking longer than it should and they seemed to be having problems with the register. Eventually one of the girls face grew frustrated and she walked away. Moments later the last three girls were told coffee is on the house. They waited, were patient and in return received a blessing FREE COFFEE!

Watching this take place made me question, how many blessings have I missed out on simply because I don’t want to wait? Today I was reminded that we often walk away from a blessing because we are in too much of a rush to wait patiently to receive His blessing!

Gods timing does not always match ours but He always shows up right on time. Don’t miss the blessings of God because you refuse to be patient. Don’t walk away frustrated, missing out on your blessing only because you just can’t wait. Be patient. Wait on Him! He always shows up!

The Colorful Questions of Life!

Each colorful square on Joseph’s robe represents a question answered by each preschool friend. We read about Joseph’s Robe in The Beginners Bible and took turns answering questions after. As you answered a question about the Bible story you got to add a color to Joseph’s robe on the wall. Everyone participated and no one was left out of the fun because they could call on a friend for help if they did not know the answer. Isn’t that what Jesus wants us to do as believers? Call on Him when we need help? Jesus is our friend and He is always here to help. We are not going to know the answers to all the greatest questions in life but there is someone who does… Jesus. Call on Him He wants to help.

“Because He has inclined His ear to me, Therefore I shall call upon Him as long as I live.” Psalm 116:2

Skittles, streamers and a colorful robe!

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28

Because Joseph was the youngest of his brothers, he was favored by his dad. When Joseph was given the coat of many colors his brothers became jealous and sold him to be a slave. However, What man intended for evil God used for good. After many years and hard work Joseph was put in charge of all of Egypt and reunited with His family. There will be times when life is not fair, others are against you and it seems nothing good can come from the mess you are in. Keep serving God because he always brings good from evil.

As we dug deeper into the story of Joseph and the colorful robe elementary did two fun activities! First they divided skittles by color in a jar and filled each jar with water and left the skittles to dissolve in water.

While waiting they raced in teams against each other to see which team could wrap their team mate in a colorful robe from streamers the fastest.

What happened to the skittles? They dissolved leaving jars of colorful paint. So we painted Joseph’s robe.

We learn a lot in Kids Life but we always learn while having fun!

Permission Granted!

Permission Granted!

I woke up to this picture in my time hop. I started crying. It’s been one year. One year ago today our lives changed forever! The words “but you are in the process of a miscarriage” still haunt me! Wondering what our baby would have looked like still brings tears to my eyes. Imagining the love Ellie would have given her baby leaves me a little angry. BUT knowing our baby is in the arms of Jesus. That gives me peace. I took this picture aug 13th 2018. Moments later we began to miscarry our 2nd baby. I can’t help but imagine that Ellie was pointing to heaven where our baby is now. I know, in reality this is not true. She was pointing at the birds. I know because she said “look mom birds!” However, the thought still gives me peace and hope. This picture is a constant reminder that Ellie is a big sister to a little one in heaven.

I know I’m not alone. There are so many of you who have and are facing the very same thing. If I could say one thing here it is….

Grieve! It’s ok to cry. Your baby counts! Give yourself permission to simply grieve! I struggled with this for a while. Did I really deserve to cry over a pregnancy that was early? Then it hit me. Maybe it was God speaking. Maybe it was grief! I realized though we were all an early pregnancy at one point. We were all once barely noticed on the ultrasound but look at us now. We all started so tiny that no one but God knew we existed BUT that’s the beauty in this terrible word called miscarriage. He knew we were there. We mattered to Him before we were seen on an ultrasound or before the two lines appeared. This fills me with so much peace. I’m not grieving Someone who never existed. I’m grieving a child who God loves so much and who I will never not love or remember. However, on a whole new level I am reminded how precious we are to God. He was the first one to start loving us and He will never stop loving us.

Even in this moment I fear my sadness my grief will be rejected by you. I fear YOU will say “you were only…” but let me remind you this post is not for you. It’s for all the ones struggling with this very question? Can I grieve the loss of my very early pregnancy? Permission granted!

The day I realized I had FINALLY won the “Mom of the Year” award!

The day I realized I had FINALLY won the “Mom of the Year” award!

When we found out we were expecting Ellie, I had a long list of the ways I’d rock as a mom! I didn’t write them down but my list made me the Mom Of The Year. In my mind anyway! I thought every other mom was doing it all wrong and I’d show them how to really win at motherhood. Do I have any other mom friends who thought they had it all together? Then, Ellie was born and that invisible list in my head no longer mattered. I quickly realized I had no idea what I was doing. I was merely trying to survive. Have you ever taken a step back and realized your list was missing an important component. Here are three things I said I never do as a mom…

1. I would NEVER buy the good2grow juices from the convenience store:

Do you know the ones I am referring to? They have cute characters as caps! However, they cost almost 4 bucks a bottle! Ellie gets excited to collect the different characters. They are at the very bottom of the fridge so she gets way down on her hands and knees to make sure there is not one far back that she cannot see.

We try to find them on sale or in bulk and we definitely don’t buy them each week but we do let her get one when she finds a character she doesn’t have yet. We also now use them as game players. They work perfect with Ellie’s new DIY board game. Before Ellie I was convinced they were a waste of money. The truth is they are a waste of money. However, its her first desired collection and she is getting some reuse out of them as well.

2. I would NEVER Let my kid go to the gym daycare:

Guys! Most of y’all know how hard it is for me to just drop Ellie off and not give her a second thought. Well… it happens everyday now. At our local gym they have this really cool program. They have kids play in the gym. Ellie loves it! She gets so excited to go and play with all her friends. I get to walk on the track while she plays below me in the gym. They have a safe check in and check out system and all the teachers know Ellie by name. In Texas I went to the mall everyday on my lunch break to walk. It was my hour to refresh mentally, emotionally and spiritually while Ellie was napping at school. I was disappointed when moving here that there wouldn’t be a mall as close. However, we now live less than five mins from the gym and I’m there as much as I can to get my power walking on.

3. I would NEVER be a stay at home mom:

Now you know why it’s a MUST that Ellie goes to the gym daycare. I need that hour! I’ve always said staying at home is not for me. However, it’s just what I need now. I work part time but Ellie is with me all week. She helps me set up the rooms for the weekend by doing the craft so the kids have a sample. I only have a few years left before Ellie goes to kinder (if we don’t homeschool) so I’m soaking up as much time with her as possible. I won’t lie, we are more annoyed with each other then ever before but as she drifts off to sleep each night (finally quiet and still) I can’t help but be thankful for this extra time I do have with her in this season. God knew we needed this time. I’m slowly learning that He always knows what we need in each season of life. Ellie is my mini me and every moment she’s with me is a treasured moment.

Here’s the thing! We all judge as mothers! You might not admit it or even be aware of it. But we do! For example, just know if you feed your kid hot dogs I’m totally judging you. I really like you. I think you are a phenomenal mom. You probably even cause a little jealousy In my heart. However, hot dogs are from the devil! I try really hard not to judge but as a mom who fears her kid choking, I do. I’m sorry I love you but I judge you too. Im working on it!

We should just stop! The truth is we are all trying to survive motherhood! Let’s support one another!

Can I say this though? I’m so thankful for God’s Grace! I have made so many mistakes as a mother. Get ready to judge yall!!! Here I go!

My top 4 mom fails:

I Lost Ellie in the mall! Yep! Straight up LOST her. I was screaming at people to call the cops. I’ll never be able to truly thank that sweet little wise lady who saw Ellie making a dash for the exit and alerted me just in time. Guys! Worst five minutes EVER!

I was recently driving down the road. We were about fifteen minutes into our drive when I hear Ellie shout “MOM! YOU FORGOT TO BUCKLE ME UP!” Guys that was the second time that month that I somehow forgot to buckle her up. No worries! I have sticky note reminders EVERYWHERE now!

I sent her to school forgetting to feed her breakfast.

When she was 6 months I was so tired. I literally stood up from the couch forgetting she was in my arms and straight up dropped her. Don’t worry. Jessie is a ninja. He caught her… BARELY!!!!

I’ll stop there. No need to shame myself more.

There are countless small and big mistakes I have made and I’m so thankful that God had his hand on Ellie in all of them. Becoming a mother has taught me that I need Jesus more than ever before. I need Him. You need Him. That mother we judge needs Him. We all need Him. In all my mistakes I try. I try my hardest to be the best for her but I can’t be perfect. I need Him. I need Jesus! I just can’t mom without Him. This is when we truly win “Mom of the year!” When we realize that we can never measure up to the mom we are called to be without Him.

“Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.” Isaiah 41:10 NLT

What is something you said you would never do as a mother?

Holding On!

While in Mexico a few years ago (2013), I remember seeing these two little girls. You can see one holding the other. For the purpose of the story I’ll call them Maria and Veronica. I remember for hours Maria set holding Veronica while she slept. Even during all the fun games, upbeat songs and dancing Maria patiently sat holding Veronica. I took a picture because the love of Jesus was reflected so greatly and I didn’t want to forget. I woke up this morning reminded of how much God loves each of us. He loves us so much He will never let us go. He will never leave us. Hebrews 13:5 is the verse that comes to mind when I see this picture.

“I will never leave you or forsake you.” Hebrews 13:5

Jesus loves us so much and like Maria holding a tired child, Jesus will hold you through every trial, every victory and every moment of life. Not only will He hold you but He will never let you go.