Come As You Are!

Come As You Are

Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28

My family is in love with dressing up for Halloween. Okay! I’ll tell the truth. I’m in love with dressing up for Halloween. Most Halloween’s involve more then one costume and the fun starts the first day of October.

The day after Halloween I am already dreaming about the following years costume. It’s fun to get to pretend to be someone else for a time. It’s exciting to see who everyone chooses to dress like. Its interesting to see what each family decides to be. It’s all around my kind of fun.

While getting this years costumes together I had a thought. We don’t have to dress up for God. We don’t have to pretend to be someone we are not. We don’t have to have it all together before we can run to Him. God loves you so much and He wants to help you right where you are.

I was a junior in high school. I ran to the altar after a heart changing sermon with tears flooding my face and my heart a mess. I held my wrist out to my pastor showing him the fresh marks and old scars. I stood there weak from starving my body out of fear of gaining weight. I had no idea how to stop all the self destruction. I had no idea how it all began. I was so spiritualy tired knowing I was going down the wrong path. I was emotionally and mentally a wreck. I wanted to disappear! I wanted to die! I didn’t know what to do other than ask God to fix the mess I had created. When I left church that day I do believe my whole life took another turn. A better turn! No! I wasn’t completely better. I still for a time struggled with self harm and anorexia. I struggled finding Gods purpose for me! I still struggle daily to keep this part of my life behind me. However, there was something about running to God that pointed me in His direction. Me simply acknowledging that I needed Him changed my direction in life entirely. Choosing Him pointed me toward the help I needed. My point is that I went to God that Sunday morning a mess and He loved me in all my brokenness. He didn’t tell me to fix my problems before coming back but he walked with me through those challenging moments. More importantly he loved me enough to help me through all the pain that was causing this self destruction. Can I just tell you this, when I found His love, His forgiveness and His purpose for my life I have never been the same.

There are still moments everyday that I have to run to God as I am and pray the following verse over myself!

“Create in me a clean heart, O God. Renew a loyal spirit within me.” Psalms 51:10

There is so much more He wants to break and mold in me and YOU! I encourage you to write this verse down and memorize it. Pray it over yourself daily. Yes! It’s ok to pray for yourself (another devotional for another time).

I get that I tend to be very transparent in my writing. It’s possible it makes some uncomfortable. The truth is it’s real. If I can share parts of my story that are not proud moments. Moments that really hurt but moments that shaped me. If I can share these moments to relate with my readers then I will. I truly believe that writing is part of Gods purpose for me and sharing it is another part of His purpose.

There are some of you who are completely a mess. Maybe not the same mess I was in but you are in a mess. There are some of you who are in more of a mess than I could ever even begin to imagine. Some of you are in a mess that you didn’t even create for yourself. Some of You see no way out. You feel completely wrecked and powerless. You don’t know what to do. Maybe you want to give up like I once did. Don’t! Hold on! (BTW you have to listen to the song “Hold On” By TobyMac) Regardless of the size of your mess just breathe!!! It’s ok. God loves you. Don’t think for a second that He wants you to clean your mess up alone. While he doesn’t want you to stay the same He does want to wrap his arms around you and hold you through the pain. He wants to help you out of the mess. Will you let Him?

As October kicks off and all the fun of the season starts remember that God wants you to come to His door as you are so that He can mold you into all that He has created you to be.

Family costumes since 2016…

2016 Moster Inc

2017 Mickey and Minnie Mouse

2018 Fun Clowns

Just wait for 2019… it’s gonna be good!

Bows! Cupcakes! Tears!

” A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance.” Ecclesiastes 3:4

I woke up from a deep sleep in the middle of the night by a rather loud screech from this child. Why? Did she have a nightmare? Did the Boogie man grab her feet? No! Her bow! It fell out of her hair! Lord help me. Really? Are you serious? I know your two but did this really just happen? What did I do? I wanted to sleep so I put that pretty little bow back on her head but not before preaching a very long sermon on why a bow does not deserve our tears ESPECIALLY at two in the morning.

Guys! I’m gonna do it. I’m gonna pull the life lesson out of this moment because I just can’t help myself. Here we go….

There is something in life that you are crying about and just like a bow it does not deserve your tears.

Don’t get me wrong. There are things in life that cause us pain and in those moments we need to cry. Even Jesus himself cried.

“Jesus wept.” John 11:33


Jesus cried over things that mattered.

1. When he saw others hurting. (John 11:33)

2. When he saw how lost the people of Jerusalem were. (Luke 19:41)

It’s not wrong to cry. It’s healthy to cry. If you are going through a time where crying is what you need to do know that God is with you.

“He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds.” Psalms 147:3

For the rest of us not everything deserves our tears.

For example…

One time I cried as I shouted


I don’t even remember the back story.

There was another time that I cried when I found out they take some of the icing off the toddlers cupcakes at school. (Found out later it was to keep the kids from getting sick from a sugar overload). Makes total sense!

I guess I have a weird thing with cupcakes. 😂😂😂 However, my point is those two moments did not deserve my tears and there are moments that won’t deserve your tears.

Honestly, it’s different for everyone. I made a list of 3 things I feel are not worth my tears!

1. Cupcakes

2. My messy house

3. When someone does not like me.

What are your 3 things not worth your tears?

A new season to love yourself!

A New Season for Love!

“For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth.” Psalms 139: 13-15

It’s fall y’all. This cute pumpkin 🎃 made my heart smile this morning. While getting her dressed she said “Ooooooh I’m cute!” This simple statement is told to her in some way everyday by her teachers at school as well as her daddy and I. I love that her teachers not only teach and take care of her basic needs but they show her so much love and they teach her how to love herself. I love that her teachers at church tell her constantly how much Jesus loves her. I love that she wakes up feeling good because of all these factors.

I think we get it wrong in life. We live life with the mindset that it’s not ok to feel good about ourselves. That some how loving your self makes you conceited. However, God loves you! God created you! Even in all our flaws he loves us You can continue working on your hang ups while still loving you. If you are one who struggles loving yourself I encourage you to dig deeper in His word. I promise it’s filled with verses of Gods love for you. Here is one of my favorites…

“For the Lord your God is living among you.

He is a mighty savior.

He will take delight in you with gladness.

With his love, he will calm all your fears.

He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.” Zephaniah 3:17

It’s ok to feel good about yourself. It’s ok to wake up and like what you see. It’s ok to love yourself and enjoy being in your own skin. You can love yourself without being conceited or full of pride.

I like what Joyce Myers has to say on this subject,

“Liking yourself doesn’t mean you’re full of pride; it simply means you accept yourself as the person God created you to be. “

In Matthew 22:39 we are told to love our neighbor as ourself.

“…love your neighbor as yourself.” Matthew 22:39

If we can’t love ourselves how will we ever be able to truly love others?

It’s fall y’all. It’s a new season. It’s another chance to see yourself as the wonderful person God created you to be. It’s a new opportunity to love yourself. Let’s make this season count.

Sneaky Little Sin!

“A final word: Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on all of God’s armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies of the devil. For we(a) are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.” Ephesians 6:10-12

It came out of no where in the middle of night with a raging fever and a sudden volcano eruption of vomit. Its name? The flu!

An hour or so after arriving home from the Doctor I realized that Ellie was acting zoned out. I checked her temperature and was in disbelief that the thermometer read 107. We immediately pour Tylenol down her throat (the proper dose) and call the on call doctor. We were blessed that it went down quickly but were stunned that it came on without warning. I realized later on that I had missed a dose of Tylenol and this allowed time for the fever to spike. Isn’t sin often this way? If you are not on your guard It will sneak up on you. This is why it is important that we spend time in prayer and in the word daily. Doing so equips you with the power to stand against sin. What is your go to scripture to combat sin? If you do not have one I challenge you to find one this week.

Here is mine:

“Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour.” 1 Peter 5:8

Stirred up faith!

“If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, ‘Be uprooted and planted in the sea,’ and it will obey you.” Luke 17:7

When I was in the 2nd grade my family was struggling financially. At this point in our life we needed assistance for food. One day my mom was on her way out the door to go to a church to receive several boxes of free food. I asked my mom, “Do you think that they will give us Kool-aid? My mom couldn’t answer. I know it’s such a silly thing to pray for but still I went to my room and prayed “Lord please help them to give us purple Kool-aid. I want purple kool aid so bad.” An hour or so later my mom returned home and asked me to help unload the food boxes. Looking into a box I pull out an extra large container of purple Kool-aid.

My excitement grew and I began to shout…

God answered my prayer!”

That day I learned a very valuable lesson that went with me for the rest of my life. That day I learned that I could place my faith in God for not only the big things but the small things as well. This moment in my life has challenged me to always put my faith in God. I want to challenge you to never underestimate what God can do for you regardless of how big or small.

I recently spent the morning teaching Ellie how to make purple Kool-aid. While making the Kool-aid I told her this story in a way she can understand. I want her to know early that she can go to God for anything. I will continue through out life to share this story with Ellie over a glass of purple Kool-aid because I want to stir her faith up in God!

Maybe you are reading this and you say what I need from God is bigger than a glass of Kool-aid. I want you to know that God is in your corner. He is fighting for you. You are not alone. He will come through for you. He will come through on time even when you feel he is already late. I want to encourage you to continue to stir up your faith in God until you…

“Taste and see that the lord is good.” Psalms 34:8

How do I stir up my faith in God?

1. Prayer! Don’t stop praying for what you need from God. 1 Thessalonians 5:17 says, “Pray without ceasing.”

2. Read His word! The word of God is filled with stories of God coming through just in time! Isaiah 41:10 says, “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”

3. Reflect on what God has already done for you and thank Him. 1 Chronicles 16:34-35 says, “Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good!His faithful love endures forever. Cry out, “Save us, O God of our salvation!Gather and rescue us from among the nations, so we can thank your holy name and rejoice and praise you.”

Thank God for what He has done and will continue to do for you.

Remember, God loves you so much. He’s not up there laughing at the struggles you face. He is cheering you on. Don’t give up. Continue to stir up your faith in God. He’s got you!

Socks for Seniors!

The fall season is just around the corner and our family has decided to begin collecting socks for Dayspring Living, a nearby nursing home. Did you know that socks are a much needed item during the fall and winter season for many residence in nursing home facilities?

I have always had a heart for the elderly. It breaks my heart to know of the many men and women who may never have someone visit them.

One of the many things that attracted me to Jessie is that he has always been willing to visit senior citizen homes with me.

Now that we have Ellie we take her with us when we go!

Jessie and I are excited to help Ellie collect and pass out these socks to the residence.
Ellie has even done her chores to earn her seven dollars for her sock donation.

Pours the laundry detergent.

Fills dads cup with water each morning!

Puts her books on the shelf.

Fall begins on September 22nd. We plan to Deliver the socks the first weekend in October. We need to collect 100 pairs of socks. Will you help us fill such a simple need?

How can you help?
1. Donate new men’s plain white tube socks. (7 dollars at Walmart)

*We chose to only collect men socks because they work best for men and women.

2. Pray that God does more then warm the feet of those who wear the socks but that God warms their hearts.

We are so excited to do something for the community with Ellie! We thank you in advance for your support.

Update: October 6th 2018 Today was a success. Ellie and Lizzy sure did melt some hearts and brought lots of smiles to the residents. They could not get enough of the girls and kept calling them into the main room to visit. We were able to donate 140 pairs of socks and passed out 100 of them. It was beautiful getting to see these girls in action. Ellie and Lizzy are being called “little missionaries” by the residents. Ellie got to high five a 101 year old lady. The best part was singing Jesus Loves Me with the residents at the end. We can’t say thank you enough for all your prayers and donations.

Prized possession!

“For the Lord your God is living among you. He is a mighty savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.” Zep 3:17

I recently dug some prized possessions from a box in the back of our closest. In this box was a yellow shirt my stepdad wore to work in the yard, a keepsake box with his picture and Bible in it and most importantly the key to his truck that he left me when he passed away. Unfortunately I could not keep up with the cost of the truck and had to sale it. However, I always held on to that key. All these possessions brought me peace after his passing. For a while I kept them close looking at them daily and sometimes several times a day. I cried over them and even slept with his shirt under my pillow on many occasions. As time went on I looked at them less frequently and soon didn’t feel the need to run the key to his truck through my fingers as often. This is until recently. Years after his death, I found myself thinking of his memory once again and I immediately ran to the closet pulled out the box and admired all the memories found in it. Once again I ran my fingers over the key remembering the first time I learned to drive with Mike as my teacher. I can’t forget the time he forgave me after knocking the side view mirror off the truck while trying to park. I still have every detail in my memory of the time he held out both arms, handed me a knife and told me to cut him. “If you are going to cut yourself I’d rather you just cut me.” I didn’t! I couldn’t hurt him. Mike loved me so much and he helped me see how much I should love myself.

Then it hit me… I place so much value in these items yet at one time I shoved these valued items in a box and placed them in the back of my closet. God is different. He will never have to go looking for you in the back of His closet. He knows exactly where you are and the value he has placed on you will never change. Jesus loves you so much. He forgives you when you mess up. He took the shame of your sin when He painfully died on the cross! He has so much in store for you. You are His and He will never push you toward the back of His closet. You are on His mind all the time. He loves you. You are His prized possession!


“Direct your children onto the right path, and when they are older, they will not leave it.” Proverbs 22:6

I’m so thankful that Ellie is surrounded by friends who are being raised by parents who love the Lord. This picture brings so much joy to my heart. In this moment I am reminded that as Christians with children, we are responsible to point them in the right directions. This means We put Ellie in Godly social environments so that she can see the difference between a friend who loves the Lord and a friend who does not. We never want Ellie to believe that only “old people”can love the Lord but we want her to know that young people do too. In knowing and seeing this I believe she will build her strongest relationships with individuals who are close with God. We pray that in doing this one day she will fall in love with the right boy who always points her to Jesus like her daddy does for me. We often strive to place our child in the best environment for success. When it comes to our child’s education we place them in the best schools that will help them get the best career. We make sure our kids are on the best teams to help them become the best athletes. However, We often fail to push them toward creating relationships with individuals who know how to stay close to God when everything else falls apart. All relationships are important but as Christians we should want our children to play a significant role in this world and this means they are closest to people who point them to Christ.

A pineapple a day!

1 Peter 5:7 “Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.”

I tend to worry more than what is probably normal. I’m often discouraged by this human nature of mine and each day I try so hard not to let the worries take root. Our human nature is not an excuse to stay broken. The truth is I fail… on many occasions. I am continually learning to turn each worry into a prayer.

Did you know that Jesus is not the least bit shocked by our worries?

I’ve realized that every time I pray about a specific worry I feel God give me permission to let that worry go. We often just need assurance that it’s ok to not worry. When we put all our faith in God and in Him alone we are giving ourselves permission not to worry. Jesus even tells us not to worry.

Matthew 6:25-27

That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing? Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are? Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?

When I was in elementary school my family was having a lot of financial trouble. We often worried if there would be enough food to make it through the month. I can remember being so consumed with worry that my family would not have food to eat that I would wake up in the night to check the pantry. I would pull out the little food we had and divide it up into sections on the counter. When there was not enough to make it through the month I would lay awake trying to stretch the food for the month in my head. Eventually my family hit a better spot in life and we had more then enough but you see that time I spent so consumed with “would we have enough” drove me into this feeling of discomfort around food. Suddenly I just didn’t want to eat. This worry drove me to an eating disorder. The worry won’t stop just because the problem has been fixed. The food issue was fixed but the deep rooted worry was not. Sometimes you can spend so much time worried about something that even when the problem is fixed the worry only grows into something bigger. We can’t allow worry to become a habit in our life.

I have excepted that by allowing myself to constantly worry I am only adding more fuel to the fire. I am missing out on all of God’s greatness when I allow worry to overcome me. You are too!

God loves you so much and He does not want you spending your life worried about tomorrow.

When I saw the expression

“A pineapple a day keeps the worries away,” my mind immediately went to God.

Praying daily keeps the worries away and when they comes back continue to pray.

I’m not perfect. I still wake up at 3am with a deep feeling of anxiety but I immediately give it to God reminding myself that I am safe. I now know that I can give my worries to God and He truly makes all the difference. I encourage you to begin turning all your worries into prayers. You have permission to let go and let let God take care of it all. Trust Him.

Oh Be Careful Little Eyes!

“In the same way, encourage the young men to live wisely. And you yourself must be an example to them by doing good works of every kind. Let everything you do reflect the integrity and seriousness of your teaching.” Titus 2:6-7

Yesterday in the church nursery these four were calming their babies by showing them the fish in the tank. This is something they see the volunteers do when a child comes in upset after being separated from their parent. It always works!

Kids listen and they watch us. They repeat what we say and they mimic what we do. Let’s be sure we are helping them say and mimic the heart of God.