“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Phil 4:13
Moms! Let’s get real Motherhood is hard! Last week I did 15 loads of laundry in a weekend. I’m not sure if I should be ashamed that we have enough clothes to build up 15 loads or worse that I let it sit there that long! After I finished the laundry it laid on Ellie’s bed for a week unfolded. Our house always looks like a bomb went off even when I’m cleaning ALL 👏THE 👏 TIME! We eat out way too much because I can’t cook and I’m too tired at the end of the day to learn. Recently I let Ellie drink two tall glasses of purple kool-aid because quite frankly her smile while drinking it made me too happy to stop her. My punishment: she peed… EVERYWHERE! If I’m being really honest I have slipped a few “No No” words too many times to count and I’m terrified she might repeat them. While I’m on a roll I let her watch T.V, I buy her too much, I think she’s more perfect then what is most likely true, I give her a sucker just so I can make it through the store, and one morning I forgot to feed her breakfast until we were on our way out the door and she started screaming “My breakfast! My breakfast!” To make it worse I lost her for an entire 10 seconds in the mall one day and thanks to a lady seriously sent by God I found her and she was ok. Is it terrible that My favorite part of the day is when Ellie has to do a breathing treatment which means I get 15 minutes to run in place in order to claim my exercise badge for the day?
I don’t write all this because I’m proud of it. Trust me I’m not proud! I’m not complaining either because as a mom I have it good because my amazing husband helps in so many ways. Honestly, I would much rather write all the things I’ve done right as a mother but I think moms need to see especially on a day like Mother’s Day that we are only human, not perfect and in serious need of Gods grace. As a mother who feels like I’m doing it all wrong at times I want you to know you are not alone. It is by the Grace of God and the hundreds of prayers I pray every day that I make it.
The truth is I love being a mom and I’m really trying to be a good one. It’s so hard and the worries that come with motherhood make it that much more difficult. However, Ellie is one of the best blessings that has happened to me. Until I held her in my arms for the first time I never knew how to love like this. I wouldn’t trade this messy chaos for anything else in the world.
To the single moms who do this Mom thing everyday by yourself you are a true rock star. It’s not easy but I see you rocking it!
As mothers we are worthy of being celebrated. Today is our day. When you feel like you are doing it all wrong know that in reality we all feel that way. Being a mom is tough but we can all agree it’s so worth it. Happy Mother’s Day!
“Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn’t he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders and goes home.” Luke 15: 4-6
I decided to take Ellie to the Willow Bend Play area! I had my eyes on her the entire time. She took off toward the exit at a very fast pace. I obviously took off after her. As she made it out the exit of the play area I accidentally knocked over a two year old little girl because I was frantically trying to catch up with Ellie. In the moment all that made sense was to scream “I’m so sorry” as I left the innocent child on the ground crying and continued to chase Ellie. I finally catch up with Ellie and hug her tight. Then I do the walk of shame back through the play area to apologize to the little girl and her dad. Thankfully her dad as well as three other parents understood the entire situation. They even agreed that they would have reacted in the same way.
This one moment reminds me of Gods love for us. He can’t stop and won’t stop chasing after us. While He might not knock over innocent bystanders in the process He will always chase after us.
When Jesus chased me down I fought hard going where He was taking me. I was scared. I couldn’t see the big picture. He kept chasing me but as His sheep I had to choose to follow Him. Can I just say I am so thankful I did? He had such a great plan for my life but I was going the opposite way. He loves me so much that He continued to chase me even as I continued to run. It’s the same for you. He will always chase after you but you have to be willing to follow Him into the plan He is calling you to. Are you running from His plan? Stop! Let Him put you on His shoulders and take you back to where you are called.
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!”
2 Corinthians 5:17
I can Remember at the age of 10 taking two baskets of laundry (one stacked on the other) to the apartment laundry mat and then back up three flights of stairs. This will always be the (I walked three miles in the freezing snow) story I tell my kids and grandkids. I did this often and to be honest it was just part of life. However, I very strongly believe that this chore shaped me into the strong and hardworking individual that I am today. Recently I took our big blankets to the washateria because our washer at home is not large enough. While sitting waiting for the blankets to finish God reminded me to never forget where He has brought me from. I don’t mean just in the materialistic or financial way either. God has brought me from complete emotional turmoil to an unbelievable amount of wholeness, maturity and peace. I have so far to go in so many areas but as I watch our dirty laundry be washed clean I’m simply amazed at the level of cleaning God has done in my heart. I’ll be forever grateful that He has brought me so far and is continuing to take me further.
Maybe you are reading this and thinking of all the areas that need work in your heart. You might feel its impossible. I’m here to tell you God can and He wants to make every inch of your heart whole. You just have to open it up and let Him. Will you?