Take the chocolate!

Take the Chocolate !!!

I was at the pediatrician a few weeks ago with Jay and I started to feel light headed and panicky. I ran out the door earlier that morning so that we would not be late for his appointment. Unfortunately, I did not eat breakfast. I could feel my sugar dropping.

The nurse walked in and could immediately tell something was off and offered me chocolate to help. I of course turned it down because taking food still gives me a feeling of guilt and shame. Then with such confidence, while still typing on the keyboard she laid the chocolate down and said…

“You know, there’s no shame in admitting you need to eat!!!”

She was right!! There is nothing wrong with me for being hungry.

Not long ago I would have left the chocolate there even if it meant passing out from low blood sugar. This time… I took the chocolate! It was the perfect fix till I could get to something more healthy and sustainable.

There are some of us who need a reminder that it’s ok to eat. Your not abnormal for being hungry. You’re not bad for needing food.

Remember, there is no shame in admitting you need to eat.

Take the chocolate.

“Go, eat your bread with joy, and drink your wine with a merry heart, for God has already approved what you do.” Ecclesiastes 9:7


“THAT” Girl!

Do you remember the candy grams passed out at valentines in highschool?  You could purchase a candy gram for a dollar and have it delivered to a friend during class. It was a way to raise money for a specific organization or purpose.  I never got one that I recall but I also never gave one.  

Ellie recently came home with a family assignment. Together we get to make a valentines box of her choice. We are definitely going all out.  I’m excited on so many levels. Ellie and I searched Pinterest and she found a box she is thrilled to create. I’ll keep it a secret till completion. As we were creating her box and thinking of creative details to add I explained to her that she gets to make a valentine card for each friend in her class. I asked her to think of something that makes each kid in her class special. Some of her responses were…

 L is funny. He makes me laugh. 

V had a fun Halloween party. 

J gives me hugs. 

She will write something special on each class member’s valentine card to give to them at the Valentines party. 

I love that her school celebrates Valentines in this way. I love that they encourage every child to bring a valentine for every friend.  Not only is it good relationship building as a family but it’s a great opportunity to show love to every kid in the class. We want to encourage Ellie to see every kid the way Jesus views them. I don’t know about you but not everyone is my biggest fan. Not everyone likes me and that is ok with me.  To be honest there are individuals that don’t smell like peaches and cream to me either but every person has a quality that makes them special.  We can show kindness to everyone. We SHOULD show kindness to everyone. We should look for the good in each person. Yes! We should also show love to those who are not kind toward us. 

“But I say, love your enemies! Pray for those who persecute you! Matthew 5:44 

I simply believe that the world would be a sweeter place if we just walked around handing out valentines to EVERYONE simply because every single person in this world matters to God. 

If I could go back to high school I would be “THAT” girl. The one who walks the halls handing everyone she passes a candy gram, no matter who they are or how much they like or dislike me.  I wouldn’t waste the day feeling sorry for myself because no one addressed a candy gram to me. Deep down we are all the same. The world is just like high school. You have your jocks, preps, misfits, band nerds, smart kids and so on but deep down we all are in need of Jesus and if we dig a little deeper we secretly all want a candy gram too. I can’t go back to high school but I can be “THAT” girl now. 

If during the month of February I hand you a lollipop with a corny note attached just smile and take it. Humor me! I’m just doing now what I should have done back then… showing EVERYONE that they are loved by Him.  

“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.” John 13:34

Merry Christmas

Its Christmas Eve and I can’t help but be reminded of all the wonderful individuals who blessed my family when I was a kid. We didn’t have much and definitely not extra for Christmas gifts most years. Still, my favorite Christmas memory is a Christmas Eve when I was 8 or 9. Well… honestly I don’t know how old I was. It was definitely elementary school age. It was Christmas Eve and there were no gifts under the tree. I remember feeling disappointed and at the same time guilty that I was disappointed because I knew Christmas is about Jesus. In the middle of my mixed emotions we hear a knock on the door. Not expecting anyone we opened the door to find several people including kids my age standing at the door with huge smiles. They had big bags filled with toys swung over their shoulders and boxes of food. We welcomed them in and after talking for a few minutes they held our hands and prayed with us. I hope they know how their prayers have followed me. It felt like such a huge circle of people who chose to show our family the love of Jesus. I can still remember the peace their prayers brought me. I remember my smile was huge and I was so thankful for them.
For years I’ve always desired to give back in the same way I was given to as a child. Early on I was challenged to find a way to pay it forward. To me that has always looked like giving to those who have less then me or are struggling financially. While giving in that way will always be a desire of mine, over the past few years I have desired to give in a different way. I have had the opportunity to give to those who might be doing well financially but emotionally they need a God kiss. You know? The kind of feeling you get when you go through a drive though and your having an awful day and for some reason the nice person in front of you covered your food? That’s a God kiss. Each of us at some time in life need a kiss from God. An unexpected gift that helps a person see that God is always there in the mist of their troubles. Someone needs a plate of goodies as they fight an illness. Another needs someone to hold their hand as they wait on the outcome of their loved ones surgery. Some need a financial blessing and I pray our family will continue to bless others in that way. However, even the financially stable need a reminder that God is still alive. I don’t want to miss an opportunity to bless another because I’m only looking for a similar situation as my
upbringing. We get to be a God kiss to someone. It might be a family struggling financially or it might be a family struggling emotionally. The question is, are we willing to allow God to use us as a reminder that He is alive and He has a blessing (God Kiss) for each of us.

Not a number

November is always the month I start reflecting on the past year and what I want to continue working on the following year. I set it up in sections. Health, work, spiritual, family and so on. This is the first year, in a long time that when it comes to health I didn’t write down….

Lose (number) pounds.

I can’t remember a thanksgiving where the number on the scale or my image in the mirror wasn’t at the top of my to fix list. It was unhealthy.

This year I am thankful that my mindset is healthier, my body is stronger and although my eyes at times play tricks on me, I know that I am fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalms 139:14) by a God who loves me so much.

Thanksgiving 2021

I recently asked one of our preschoolers what she was thankful for and without skipping a beat she responded…

I’m thankful that God is always on our side.   

Such truth and wisdom from someone so young. This is proof that age has nothing to do with spiritual maturity. Her response resonated with me. 

Growing up, life was tough. There were many scary moments and uncertainty in life. However, even in the difficult moments growing up God was always on my side. I think back to where I was and where I am now and I can’t deny that God had always been with me, leading me. He has always provided. He has always answered. He has always shown up. Maybe not always in the way I expected but He has always come through. He has always been on my side. 

A question I hear often is, 

 if God is really on my side then why did He let such and such happen? 

1 John 1:5 reads,  “This is the message we heard from Jesus and now declare to you: God is light, and there is no darkness in him at all.” 

While evil does exist and bad things do happen, God did not create it. In fact, After creating the entire world God looked around and said it was good. 

“God saw all that he had made, and it was very good.” Genesis 1:31

However, God did create each of us with the ability to choose right from wrong. Unfortunately, the choices of others and sometimes ourselves can bring pain into our lives. Our world is filled with evil. God is not the reason for the pain In your life but He is the answer. Run to Him not from Him. Even in this world full of sorrow and pain, Jesus is on our side walking us through it.

It’s comforting to know that while evil does exist, God can take what is meant for evil and use it for good. 

A four year old little girl spoke so much truth and it really teaches us to trust Jesus more. He is always on our side. No matter what you are facing right now. No matter the uncertainty in life. No matter how many scary moments come at you. No matter how many times you have messed up. If you continue to walk with God He will continue to lead you. This year let’s not forget that God is ALWAYS on our side.

“The Lord is on my side, so I will have no fear. What can mere people do to me?” Psalms 118:6-7

Kids in ministry

Ministry with kids is challenging. I want Ellie and Jay to grow up loving ministry and not feeling pressured or overwhelmed by it. Our kids have been born into ministry and I don’t know if they will ever know another life. Ellie makes me proud everyday. Don’t get me wrong we had a screaming match this morning but overall she is a fantastic kid. We have chosen to send Ellie to public school. When it comes to ministry this is tough. We have big events at the church that take our time and energy. It also takes time and energy from our kids. We love it and we know that we have been called to it so we always give 💯 percent, but there are weeks that are so crazy busy that sending your kid to school feels mean. Ellie handles it like a trooper. I try to get her to stay home but she insists on going. Ellie went to school this past week everyday. After picking her up we headed back to the church to prepare for the weekend fall festival. I didn’t even give her anything to do because she was tired. However, she wanted to help. She cut things out for preschool and helped set up games and even ran around and played a little. There would be a mess on the floor or pieces to a game in the wrong place and I would turn around to find that she had cleaned up the mess or put the pieces in the right spot. She never complained about the extra long days and woke up with a smile ready for school the following day. Saturday night was our fall festival. We told her she could run around on her own while we led games and passed out candy and helped with the event. Ellie decided all on her own to help with one of the games. For 45 mins she stood behind the Gone Fishing Game and put candy on the hooks thrown over. She did it with a smile. She eventually ran off with a friend to play and apparently tried to get them to come to our church full time. (They are pastors at another church) 😂 Ellie wasn’t just born into ministry. Ministry was not just a card she chose from a deck. God has truly shaped her heart to love ministry and to be a servant for Him even when she is tired. God has a plan for her life. I believe He is already using her in that plan. I am so thankful for Ellie. I’m so proud of her too. Mostly I’m thankful that God has given her to us to watch her grow and raise her to love Him and to serve others. ❤️

I guess the point of this is to remind myself and you that some seasons are tough and some seasons are long but everything we do for God is worth it. Also, if you are a fellow parent who is raising kids in full time ministry know that your kids were chosen by God to be part of a family in ministry. He is preparing them now for His calling on their lives and future family. He didn’t make a mistake when He placed your children in your family.

The Trusting Pencil!

Here we have a bag filled with water. The bag represents Jesus. We trust Jesus. The water represents each of us. These pencils represent the moments when we need to completely trust Jesus.

Pencil number 1 represents our trust in Jesus as our child goes off to college. (Stick through bag of water)

Pencil number 2 represents our trust in Jesus finding our husband. (Stick through bag of water)

Pencil number 3 represents our trusting God with that lost job. (Stick through bag of water)

Pencil number 4 represents our trusting God with that medical diagnosis. (Stick through bag of water)

Pencil number 5 represents our trusting God with your painful past. (Stick through bag of water)

Pencil number 6 represents our trusting God in our relationships. (Stick through bag of water)

You see, when difficult moments happen in our life it is crucial that we completely trust in Jesus. The moment we stop trusting in Him (Pull out pencil) is the moment we are overwhelmed with all the difficult moments in life. We now have holes where we should have Jesus. We now have water everywhere and chaos sets in. Trust in Jesus keeps our hearts filled with peace.

Tempting Toilets!

Tempting Toilets

Genesis 3

Jay is in the toilets ALL the time. We officially have locked our toilet and because that was not enough we keep the bathroom door closed at ALL times. However, we are raising a little ninja who still manages to get in ALL the toilets and ALL the things.

I don’t get it. Does he not care that the toilet is so gross? 

Here’s the thing. We often get ourselves into trouble because we don’t see the problem at hand. Like Jay, we don’t see the germs that lurk in the toilet that we continue to splash in. Jay does not see the toilet as a threat. He can only see a toilet that is so tempting. He does not understand the concept of germs. He can only see what he wants to see. We continue to take him away from the toilet and set up stronger barriers and he continues to crawl in the direction we are adamantly calling him away from.

In Genesis 3 we learn about the disobedience of Adam and Eve. God gave them one boundary in the Garden of Eden. They could eat from any tree with the exception of one. They could not eat fruit from the Tree Of The Knowledge Of Good And Evil. Did they listen? No. Of course not! They each took a bite from a fruit from the forbidden tree. The fruit was too tempting. Maybe it looked so satisfying? Was it dripping with flavor? We do know that the serpent was pushing them to eat the fruit. Telling them lies. Whispering that God is only fooling them. Unfortunately, rather than listen to God (He does know best) they chose to listen to the lies the enemy and their eyes told them. They chose to disobey and now here we are ALL tempted to touch ALL the toilets we are told to stay away from. 

Listen! God has set up boundaries in our life for a reason. He has put a lock on that toilet for a reason. He is walking you away over and over for a reason. He is yelling “DON’T EAT THAT FRUIT” for a reason. While we might not know His reason we can still submit to His authority. 

There are so many tempting moments in life. These temptations don’t always look the same. Regardless of if the temptation is a fun toilet or dripping fruit, if God says “no” then stay away. Don’t open the toilet. Don’t touch the fruit. Don’t just look under the lid. Don’t just take a quick smell. DON’T GO NEAR THAT TOILET! Step back. Trust God.

A Light That Shines!

 “No one lights a lamp and then puts it under a basket. Instead, a lamp is placed on a stand, where it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your good deeds shine out for all to see, so that everyone will praise your heavenly Father.” Matthew 5:15-16 NLT I remember in third grade being in the talent show. I chose to sing the song `This Little Light of mine. A girl in my class was telling everyone that I was singing a “God” song. I felt so cool but I don’t think she was telling everyone about my song choice because she thought I was cool. I was still proud though to be representing Him. All my classmates knew my love for Jesus. I talked about Him all the time, talked to Him all day, sang about Him on stage and refused to say words that would not make Him smile even when pressured by my peers. I was sold out for Jesus. As I’ve grown older conversations about Jesus have become a battle in my mind- what if I offend someone? Talking to Jesus is still often  but not daily like it was as a little girl. I often allow life to keep me “too” busy! I can’t carry a tune so that solves the singing about Him on stage. Lastly,  I’ve let a few disappointing words slip in my adult years. 

When I see this gem above my desk I am encouraged to be the “sold out for Jesus” little girl I once was in the third grade.

In kids life we used a pumpkin and a light to talk about how we can shine for Jesus. I downloaded The Pumpkin Prayer from Teachers Pay teachers. As we pulled out all the insides from the pumpkin we asked God to take all the wrong out of our hearts and fill us with His goodness. As the eyes were carved we asked God to open our eyes to all the beauty that He has created. We continued to carve a nose and a smile and prayed different prayers to go along with each. Lastly, we placed a light inside the pumpkin and in the darkness we could see the pumpkin shining bright. 

We get to be a light for Jesus in every aspect of our lives. The way we walk through the  trials in life, our attitude toward difficult people and how we  speak to others is a direct reflection of our love for Jesus. We get to shine the love of Jesus by reflecting Him in all that we do and say. 

 I’m encouraged today and I pray you are as well; to let His light shine a little brighter in my life. 

If you would like a copy of the Pumpkin Prayer you can download it and other printables at the following link. 


Our Taco Baby!

Jay! You were one taco away from being born in the Taco Bell drive thru. 😂🎃

I believe every birth story has a purpose. You were born fast. It was as if God whispered in your ear “it’s time” and you obeyed with such confidence and readiness. I pray you always have a trust in God so strong that you follow His voice in all He calls you to do. Happy Birthday little man. We love you so much and you have made our lives so much better. ❤️🎉🎃