A Spiritual Operation!
On Easter Sunday I was talking to the class about the nails that were nailed into the hands of Jesus as they placed Him on the cross. Ellie jumped up and shouted “yeah mom like the 12 nails in your back!!!” 😂 Not exactly but I see the connection she was making. I have 2 rods and 12 screws in my back. Nothing compared to the huge nails hammered into the palms of Jesus.
June is scoliosis awareness month. In Highschool I went to the doctor with trouble breathing. After several tests, X Rays, a heart monitor and blood work it was finally determined that I had a severe case of scoliosis. My spine was significantly curved in three spots. I was immediately scheduled for surgery because my spine was pushing on my lungs and heart. Hints the reason for the trouble breathing. I had two rods and 12 screws surgically placed on both sides of my spine holding my spine in place after the surgeon pulled my spine as straight as possible without snapping it. I had an amazing team of doctors and surgeons at Texas Children’s Medical Center in Houston Texas. It was a year-long recovery process but I’ve had no real issues after surgery. The Surgeons did an amazing job straightening out my spine. I know this is not the case for every patient so I don’t take my positive experience for granted.
If you were to have an x-ray on your life would it be in line with God or would it be curved in the wrong spots like my spine pre surgery? When we take our life to the cross and leave it in the hands of Jesus He is able to straighten out the curves, and ultimately fix what maybe we messed up. However, we have to allow Him to work on us.
The valleys will be filled, and the mountains and hills made level. The curves will be straightened, and the rough places made smooth. And then all people will see the salvation sent from God.’” Luke 3:5-6 NLT
We have to be willing to let God work even when the recovery might be tough and painful. I could have avoided the spinal surgery. I had the opportunity to say “no!” I was not forced. However, not having the surgery would have never given me the quality of life that I wanted. You can avoid the work of God in your life. He is not forcing you into a relationship with Him. However, you won’t regret taking His hand and letting Him straighten your life out. There is a moment in everyone’s life when they need a spiritual operation.
We have an amazing surgeon. His name is Jesus. He can work miracles in our life. He can bring something beautiful from something so tragic. He makes all things new again. If you need a spiritual operation Jesus is the surgeon. He is amazing at what He does. He will transform your life. He will put your life back into alignment if only you place your life in His hands.
Happy scoliosis awareness month!!!
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A Mothers Purse
A Tribute to ALL Mothers
Isaiah 66:13: “As one whom his mother comforts, so I will comfort you.”
Once upon a time when Ellie was two she was put on medication to help ease her constipation. Now, if you have ever seen my purse then you know it is always full of everything my kids could possibly need throughout the day. However, of all days that day I forgot the wipes and extra clothes. While at a friend’s birthday party her medication worked… FAST. I smelt something! She looked at me and I looked at her and down her legs I saw what every mother fears most. Poop! Runny Poop! Smelly Runny Poop!!!! It was horrible. I quickly picked her up and raced her to the bathroom where I discovered that while I had diapers I did not have wipes or clothes. I pulled her soiled clothes off just in time for more poop to continue pouring from her body and onto the floor. I had to literally wet toilet paper to clean her up because I had too much pride to ask the mother of the party for help. I used a towel in the bathroom to clean up the poop on the floor and stuffed it in my bag because there was no way I was leaving it there. I cleaned her up and put her in a new diaper and did the walk of shame out of the house and to our car. This, my friends, is why we had to Move to Washington, Illinois. The embarrassment was too much!
I don’t know about you, but as a mother I often feel like I am dropping the ball. There are moments in life when motherhood feels too much. I lose my temper. My kid has to ride home in just a diaper. I send my child to school with an empty lunchbox that I thought I filled. We go weeks without reading. Truthfully, there are times when I don’t feel like I am enough for my children. I feel like I am letting them down. It often feels like my mama purse is completely empty.
When I was in Elementary school my sisters and I would walk to school everyday. It wasn’t far but it felt like a walk across the country when facing that Texas heat. On really hot days my mom would show up with a washcloth that was frozen. We would put it around our necks to help us stay cool on the walk home. It was just what we needed.
As mothers we always seem to know what our children will need throughout the day. That’s why, I believe that we carry large purses. There is no telling what you will find in a mothers purse. From applesauce packs to diapers we can agree that it is normally crammed with it all.
In Luke 10:38-42 we read the story of Mary and Martha. Jesus comes to visit and Martha is anxiously running around preparing dinner for her guest. Meanwhile Mary is sitting at the feet of Jesus listening intently to His every word. Martha becomes angry and scolds Jesus because He was not the least bit concerned that she was making dinner alone while Mary was sitting at His feet. It seems as though Martha was hoping Jesus would set Mary straight by telling her to go help her sister but instead…
Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” (Luke 10:41-42, NIV)
There is nothing and no one more important than Jesus and the time we spend with Him. Mary understood this. Do we? As moms we sometimes show up without the wipes, missing snacks, unpacked lunchboxes and so on. However, even when we show up with it all and extra for the struggling mom it’s still not enough. What?!?! Not enough?!?! Will I ever be enough?!?! Way to boost my mom ego Helena!!
Grab you a Diet Coke and calm down!!! Listen!!!
It’s not enough without Jesus. We are not enough without Jesus. Nothing we do is enough without Jesus. Our physical purse might be packed with it all but does our spiritual mama purse have all she needs? Are we ultimately depending on Jesus to guide us, shape up and prepare us to be the mother He has called us to be? Are we allowing Jesus to walk with us as moms daily?
I sometimes feel like The Snack Mom. I like it too. Personally I think I deserve a shirt! Just to make it official. It is not unusual for me to find a child (Not my own) digging in my purse looking for a snack or juice box. I find it to be an honor. I almost always show up with a snack or two. I spend a lot of time packing my purse each day. I check, double check and triple check to make sure I have everything that might come up needed throughout the day. Reflecting on this has me asking the question… Do I spend the same amount of energy on having the things of Jesus with me throughout my day? Our mama purse might be filled to the brim with all the physical things we think our babies will need each day but our spiritual mom bags really are empty without Christ. What we carry in our spiritual purse is far more important than anything we ever pack in our physical bags.
I compiled a list of 4 items we all have in our purse and what they remind us of in our spiritual lives…
- Our Phone: Reminds us that we need constant communication with Jesus. (Philippians 4:6-7)
- Keys: Reminds us that we have access to His word. (Psalms 119:105)
- Planner: Reminds us that God has a plan for our future. (Jeremiah 29:11)
- Snacks: Reminds us that we are created for fellowship with other believers. (Hebrews 10:25)
If we want to be the mothers God has called us to be. If we want our spiritual mama purses to be overflowing with all we need from Him then we have to be a Mary. We need to daily and many days moment to moment be sitting at the feet of Jesus soaking in all His words, all His love, all his compassion, His forgiveness . We need to continually soak in all that He has for us. Our spiritual mama purse is so empty without Him. We are incapable of being a Mother without His strength and love. We can have all the snacks, juice boxes, diapers and spare clothes for our kids and still we will show up as mothers empty If we are not connected to Jesus at all times.
“I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. If you do not remain in me, you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.” John 15:5-8
Above all else, stay connected to Jesus. Without Him we can do nothing but with Him we will move mountains.
Isaiah 66:13: “As one whom his mother comforts, so I will comfort you.”
If you are anything like myself, you spend all day chasing your kids, wiping bottoms, filling sippy cups, changing diapers, helping with homework, showing up to class parties, praying over ouchies, and so on. Moms have alot of jobs. (This is not me taking away from a fathers role! Your day is coming!) Teacher, nurse, activity planner, you fill in the blank. By the time we reach the end of the day our energy is depleted. We just want to hide under the covers scrolling pinterest drinking diet coke with the only sound being the sound of silence. We love our kids. We find joy in them each day. However, even with all the love we have in our hearts for our children, it’s not enough without Jesus. It’s ok to acknowledge that mommyhood is tough. Many moments as a mom are so good. You know when your kid says Thankyou out of nowhere for something you do for them often. Or when they really show off with their behavior in public. I think when moments are good as mothers we forget that we still need Jesus. In the good and bad moments we need Jesus. The moments of joy and the moments that test our patience and leave us exhausted are the moments we need to hide under the covers talking to Jesus allowing Him to refill us with all we need to continue rocking Mommyhood. That’s what Mary shows us how to do in Luke 10. She knew if she was going to have any amount of energy for all of life then she needed to be with Jesus first. We might forget the wipes, juice boxes, extra clothes and lunch boxes but if we remember Jesus then we have all we need. Jesus is all we need and our kids need us to solely depend and trust in Him. OUR KIDS NEED US TO SOLELY DEPEND AND TRUST IN HIM!!! Let that sink in on this Mother’s Day!
Happy Mother’s Day!
Kids have this amazing ability to fall asleep pretty much anywhere. They are great at resting. As adults, it seems, with the pressures of life, falling asleep in our own bed is a struggle.
“In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
When we trust in God, while life still brings its struggles, we find ourselves able to rest in God. Like a child we can rest in any circumstance if our focus and trust is truly in Jesus. He has already overcome!
I pray that today, no matter your current circumstances you will find peace, comfort and rest in Him.
“Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28 NLT
Jesus is calling each of us to find rest in Him
I remember, at night after my step dad passed away laying in bed with my Bible clinging to it as if I were a two year old child with her favorite blanket. I clung to the word of God and I prayed until I fell to sleep every night because He was the main source that kept me from losing heart and giving up. I want to encourage you to do the same. Regardless of what you are going through let God lead you through. Cling to Him. Life is hard and is filled with ups and downs. I’m encouraged this morning that no matter what I go through God will always be my source and I can always cling to Him in good and bad times. ❤️
“I cling to you; your strong right hand holds me securely.” Psalms 63:8 NLT
Forever One Short!
⚠️ Sensitive Topic: Miscarriage ⛔️
I can’t count the number of times I catch myself looking for our middle child. I find myself standing there saying…
There is Ellie!
There is Jay!
Where is the middle one? The one who would be three this month?
For a few moments I stand confused to why I feel like I’m missing the one I never held. I never held him, I never counted his finger and toes and we never named him but he was there for such a short time. He was there long enough to leave an emptiness. I might always feel that loss while here on earth. I might always feel like I’m missing a child. I’m might always look for the middle. Miscarriage reeks of pain, emptiness and guilt. It leaves you in a constant search for your child. It leaves you in moments of panic feeling you lost sight of one of your children. There is hope in Jesus though. There is hope that while I might catch myself searching for years for my child here on earth I know he is in heaven with Jesus and we will meet one day.
On earth I will always have that “Forever One Short” feeling. In heaven though we will be reunited and that pain will be no more. The search will be over. The grief will disappear. The celebration will begin.
My baby never got his heart beat but I’m 100% confident that Jesus knows him, loves him and is with him right now. They are already celebrating! And one day we will all join in on that celebration.
“For the Lord your God is living among you. He is a mighty savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with singing.” Zephaniah 3:17
How beautiful it is to know where our middle child is. How wonderful it is to know he is being loved on by the one who loves him more then I ever could! How much peace it brings to know that he is in his forever home; safe, loved and delighted over. He is in perfect peace, happiness and care.
This April I get to add the number three candle to his collection. Each year I buy the number candle that represents the age he should be. I never want to forget that he existed, he matters and there is a place in my heart that will always be searching for him. I never want to forget the beautiful gift God gave me even if it feels our time with him was too short.
Happy birthday to my middle child! I know your celebrating in a glorious way.